Your fear, resentment, self-reliance and pride will always block the path of following Jesus, until you have surrendered to love.
There is great trust in the saying of one who said to Jesus, “I do believe… Lord, help my unbelief.”
Our imperfect ability to trust and love is given to the perfect One. This is not an un-human gesture to trust God with our lives. Loving God makes us more fully human. Tim Keller says:
“Look at Jesus. He was perfect, right? And yet he goes around crying all the time. He is always weeping, a man of sorrows. Do you know why? Because he is perfect... Because when you are not all absorbed in yourself, you can feel the sadness of the world. And therefore, what you actually have is that the joy of the Lord happens inside the sorrow. It doesn’t come after the sorrow. It doesn’t come after the uncontrollable weeping. The weeping drives you into the joy, it enhances the joy, and then the joy enables you to actually feel your grief without its sinking you. In other words, you are finally emotionally healthy.” 
If you want to see what the highest expressions of love are like, study people in tragedy, suffering and loss. The worst things can have a cleansing, healing spiritual effect when love is in the house.
Bill shared how his family gathered at his father’s bedside a few years ago as he lay dying. Together, they took turns washing their father’s feet and singing hymns that brought comfort. Tears and words of blessing were poured out.
I watched a wonderful caring from my father when my mother went through a year with Type B Lymphoma treatment. I was deeply warmed by my parents love to one of my sisters when she went through a couple divorces.
I wept as I watched the Glen Campbell documentary. As his wife and children cared for this man slowly losing his mind to Alzheimer’s, there were many touching examples of joy and sorrow inhabiting the same space.
We should all come to experience love at this level. It will be what defines us in the end.