While we may find ourselves interviewing God and asking the tough questions, there is a point at which we must return to faith, hope and love. If you are going through a time of great sorrow, doubt and hurt please remember that this is not God’s intended permanent state for your soul.
The darkest seasons have profound questions and must give way to a cry for help. It is God’s business to replenish faith, hope and love in us. It is our business to anticipate God’s intervention.
‘Kind God, I have a history with you. I have experienced your appearance in my life and had special moments where I knew that you held out answers for me. I am a sucker for your love and desperately need you. Please hear my desperate cries and respond to me. What I have experienced with you is central to my life. What a waste if I do not find hope again.
I am capable of being a passionate man and have experienced profound joy when I thought you were with me. Help me know that it was not a dream, but that you are actually involved in the mess of my life and are saving me.
Lord, even as I have given voice to these dark questions and cried to you I feel stronger for having done so. There is a strong possibility that I will taste your joy again and my life will be like a catchy song that exudes happiness. In spite of my doubts and fears—in spite of the negative, atheistic mocking of others, I know that you are strengthening my soul and it will get better than this.
I am getting ready to see you work and will give all credit where it is due. Not my will, but yours be done.